Delirious Behavior

Like the rays of the sun

You light up my heart and my mind

You dazzle me with your closeness

And leave me longing for more

You make me mad

But I’m way too far now

This is not a crossroads

More like a military coup

My soul is your captive

And I surrender myself to you

Bit by bit

Piece by piece

Fighting in the dark

Talking to myself

Struggling without reason

Loving without consequence

You know me too well

Your smile is the drug that I crave

Speak slowly so I can read your lips

Walk nearby and drive me crazy

Release me like a dishonorable slave

And watch me run to you

Cut off my life support

Let me fight for air

Give me nothing to hold on to

And just sit there

I will come to you

For you are nothing

But everything to me

Pain

With every effort comes pain of some kind. If we strive to avoid honest efforts, we tend to be afraid of suffering pain. The human body is not designed to handle unlimited wounds but the mind is. As long as the mind has complete control over the body's emotional responses, humans can go through even torture without flinching. Faith and belief in one's strength minimizes pain but it heightens their sense of responsibility.

There is a simple logic to all the crossroads in life: endurance of pain in decision-making in order to test one's emotional stability and the ability to reason. Acquaint yourself with your own strengths and weaknesses before embarking upon any path. Your preparedness will be instrumental in determining the level of pain that you can sustain.

The magic of small towns

I have lived most of my life in beautiful towns of Pakistan and it has been an invigorating experience. You see the thing about such places is that everybody knows everybody. Someone is always around to help you. Big cities scare me particularly because people are very hard to read and even harder to befriend. Trust is very much absent in big cities but small towns are generous in every aspect. Living the simple life is easier in a small town.

Rememberance

Think of me when the hate is too much
Dance away the gloom
Sing away the sorrow
For i will be here when you return
Standing in the shadows
Waiting for a glance in my direction

I intend to astound you
I hope to sway in your arms
I wish to remember you always
With love if nothing more significant
Fleeting emotions are scaring me
And i am crouching in the corner

I am sand and you are water
We blend only in an alternate reality
My juvenile mind does not accept it
Nor does it wish to negate it
I cannot love you enough to let you go
It is harder than it looks

My laptop sucks!

Aaarrgghhh! Virus struck again and my laptop has died AGAIN. Some people never tire of leaving you in the dumps at odd times, do they?! I have too many things on my mind. I cant sleep. I cant eat. I cant think. I might be constipated. I have a headache. I reach for my mobile a 100 times in a day and hold back 10 times that. I keep drowning my existence in an endless ocean of self-loathing 24/7. Needless to say that i feel absolutely terrible right now and i do not know why. Yes, this might drive more traffic to my meaningless blog. Yes, some individuals might lash out at me for this post. Yes, i might delete this post 5 seconds later.

But.

*sobs*

P.S. I still hope that someone listens to this cry for help. I think i have A.D.D. or something because i do not do this normally.

There he goes....

Tomorrow is going to be very interesting and hopefully fun too. The hero of our branch is leaving for another job that is better in all respects than his present one as a cashier. We are giving him a farewell between 1 and 3 pm tomorrow. I still do not know whether interns are allowed at such functions but we will know soon.

I have a request for every person who reads this: please pray that it stops raining in Pakistan. We do not wish to lose any more lives than we already have.

xoxo

Sleep deprived moron

Yours truly.

I am so not sleepy right now but i just need to get to bed or my internship will be a dream...literally. Its bad enough already that weird guys just stare at me instead of providing their particulars for opening an account at the bank!!! Is there nothing else left to think of? Apparently....no.

*sighs*

Got to go sleep.

P.S. I want to get a tattoo like really bad....butterflies or skeletons? Or maybe a "Signature Verified" stamp to remind me always of my internship eh?!

Snap your fingers!

Just like that you have kick started millions of beginnings and ends..a snap of your fingers is a moment in itself....the smile of a newborn baby in the arms of a mother...the sorrow of a man who just lost his job...the peace of a grandfather on his way to Heaven....the union of two lives...the desperation of a broken relationship...the success of a magician....the failure of a doctor....the newfound sight of a blind child....the lost train of a son in the army.....we cannot control many moments in our life but we certainly can think of them a lot more...our friends and foes...our fortunes and mishaps...our niceties and our rudeness...our life and our death....so think of them...think always of them....

Internship at Alfalah

Heyo frnds!

Tiday was my 2nd day at Bank Alfalah....phew what a day?! Loads of work but fun too! Its 9 to 6 with a half hour break in between...get to do lots of new work so i dont get bored easily...hmmm...lets hope it stays that way...i intend to give it my all yaar but it is not easy to do so when you are not being paid :D

C YA

Flowers and me

So i went to Kalabagh this week for 4 days..the heat was absent...we got rain and cool winds...played kho-kho with my family and ate mangoes with the monkeys :D there were sooooo mannyyy flowers over there....just wish i knew their names! Here are the pictures...lemme know if you know their names yaar...